Dear Ex,
For all the things that we’ve been through together, for all the happy days and all the long calls on the phone and for not being serious at all and always having fun. I want to thank you. Thank you for being there when I needed you the most, I miss that about you. The feeling of coming home at the end of the day knowing that there is someone who is willing to hear every word you are about to say that may not be a big deal to anyone else. But you made it feel important.
Thank you for making me believe in myself when no one else did, making me feel that I matter. Lifting me up in my darkest days and always putting a smile on my face effortlessly. Thank you for always knowing what to say and when to say it, and for putting up with my out-of-the-blue anger bursts and knowing how to deal with them.
Thank you for being my best friend. The one I can talk to about anything in the world without feeling ashamed of myself and made me comfortable enough to speak about anything that comes to mind. Thank you for making me open up to you even when I felt like I couldn’t, but still wanted to. You always found a way to guide me on the right track somehow.
Thank you for being yourself, and not acting like someone else that you are not in a hope of making things work out. Because even if you tried to be someone other than yourself, all will fail. So always be yourself no matter what.
But also,
I want to thank you for being the reason why I now believe that nothing lasts forever, no matter how much we once loved each other and spoke about our future and getting old together, actually getting into arguments about how our married life will be one day. All of that can simply go away in a flash, and there’s no going back. Its like you always said “What’s done can’t be undone, just move on”.
I want to thank you for teaching me hard but valuable lessons. Like not to link my happiness with someone ever again and learn to be happy even if I’m all alone. It doesn’t matter if I have someone, I am someone. And I can do just fine for myself.
Last but not least, thank you for all the beautiful memories that we share, and for always making me look back at the time when we were together and thinking about how genuinely happy I was, and not thinking about how toxic our relationship was. Thank you for bringing out the best in me. For being the great person that you are, regardless of how bad things got between us. I will always remember how you were always nice. I am also grateful that you had the courage to stand up to the guy I used to be back then, rather than let me get away with everything I say even when I don’t really mean them.
In the end, I just wanted to let you know that I’m grateful for having had you in my life. Of course, I do miss you and I wish things didn’t turn out how they did. But at least now I know I will live longer cause we didn’t end up getting married and got stuck with your cooking for the rest of my life.
Love, Me.